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i try

as much as i can, to be the best older sister i can be to my two younger brothers. my parents are busy 24/7.. heck, they’re not even on the same island as us. my youngest brother is turning four in a couple of months and the other is turning seventeen next week. i feel bad for christian sometimes… not having our parents around. i mean he’s still so young and i know he’s a mommas boy. i know it must be hard for my mom to be away from her baby for so long, its been almost two weeks since she has last seen him. but i know, and christian knows, why they’ve been on kauai. “to watch and take care of my restaurant” as christian would say. ..

idk, everything just came so unexpected. my parents were doing well with their water business, then all of a sudden a wonderful opportunity came up for my dad to open a restaurant, something that was always on his todo list. i didn’t realize at the time how much things around here were gonna change. i had no idea they were gonna move to kauai. everything back at home is much quieter, no parents nagging and yelling at me to do this, to do that, etc.. but i miss it. i see them every so often; my dad travels back and forth to every freakin island weekly and my mom usually comes home every two weeks or something like that.

i’m forever thankful for what God has blessed my family and I with… & i’m grateful for the fact that my parents do everything and anything they can to make us happy. it just gets frustrating sometimes because they pretty much left all the household responsibilities to me. and some of the things i have to do, i wasn’t totally prepared for. but i’m learning, slowly… and growing up. although i don’t have a job, i’m learning how to be independent. and i’m getting a lot of experience with being a ‘mom’ lol i feel like christian is my son. haha but its cool. i love it. i’d rather have christian here with me than kauai. ahhh. idk. random. x_x