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Sometimes I get sad looking at pictures or remembering times when christian was just a tiny baby. Now days when I stare at him, I realize how much he has grown. I catch myself feeling super selfish at times, wishing he’d just stop growing and getting older! I want him to be my baby brother forever lol. I know he’ll always be my little brother, but idk it’s just not the same as when he was a baby baby.. if that makes any sense? I remember when my mom told me she was pregnant, I was like whaaatthefuck 0_o I was either 16 or 17 at the time and just thinking about the age gap was so weird to me. Like when he turns my age, I’m already gonna be my mom’s age? Idk I just thought it was weird lol anyway… when i finally got to meet and hold him for the first time, i couldn’t believe how precious and so darn cute he was. Ugh, he’s already turning four in May… and now he is such a wise, talkative, and bossy little boy. I can’t believe it… where has the time gone? :(: They really do grow up fast..