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Honestly, I think I need a little push. I’m sitting here thinking and writing things down that I want, and need, to change about myself and my life but I don’t even know where to start. =? I haven’t been working to my complete potential lately and I think I know why. I’m disappointed that I’ve let myself stray this far from what my short and long term goals are (..as of right now) And currently I am far, far, farrrrrrrr from where I actually want to be in life. Things need to change around here and I need to really start getting my shit together and rearrange my priorities. I’ve said this so many times before but damn there’s so much distractions lol ugh. Oh well that isn’t an excuse. :/

My motivation? My main inspiration are my parents. foreal, started with absolutely nothing and now look where they are. gah. I’m so proud of them and their accomplishments. When I’m older, I want to be able to take care of my parents like how they took care of me… I want to be able to give back everything they’ve blessed me with and gave me. Cliche but I wouldn’t be anywhere near where I am today without them. Fuck honestly, I don’t even deserve half the things they do for me! Without hesitation my parents will go against odds to make my brothers and I happy. Work ridic hours with hardly any sleep, all day everyday.. I don’t even know how they do it. 

I guess that is just a reminder that I can’t give up now.